Dreams

I got up this morning and ate a wonderful breakfast fixed by my loving husband. What a treat. Then we all headed off to church. I found my thoughts quickly wondering during the morning sermon. I try to stay focused but sometimes my mind finds a place to think in the quietness of the sanctuary. The voice of the pastor is almost nonexistent in comparison to the voices of the five children that I usually hear.

I began to contemplate on what I had written down in my blog last night. I began to think about the dreams I had as a child. I thought about how they had changed as I became a teenager. I found it hard to recall what they even were. I remember as a young girl I wanted to be a teacher. When I was in high school I dreamed of moving to New York. I wanted a penthouse apartment over looking the city. I planned on becoming a lawyer and wanted everything I thought that life would entail. Marriage and children never entered my mind.

When did I stop believing in those dreams? Did I stop dreaming or did the dream just change? I am trying to figure out just what are my hopes for the future now. What are my dreams at this very moment? Do I even have any? If so what are they and how do I realize them. I am treating this blog as a means to an end. I just dont know where it will take me or what the end will be. But it is a fine thing to be on a journey.