Micro Management

Whew! Another Tuesday has come and gone. As I have mentioned before it is my crazy day. At least school was out. This means no crossgaurd, which always makes for a easier day. There are so many places to be. So many classes and lessons. Yet only twenty-four hours in this day.

I am learning that much to my dismay I can't be all things to all people. Nor can I be everywhere at the same time. I am forcing myself to let go and trust my kids to do somethings on their on. For years I never missed a dance class, piano lesson, baseball game, or any of their activities. It was as if I thought if I were not there watching then they couldn't perform. I know it sounds crazy. I never claimed to be sane. I always try to fix everything whether it needs fixing or not. I need to have things just a certain way. The towels folded in the same direction. Food on the right shelf in the refrigerator. Pillows turned a specific direction on the couch. I am trying to force myself to let go. I try so hard to control every situation. It is not that I want people to do things my way (ok, maybe I do.) It comes more from a fear of things being out of control. I think I have always had such chaos in my life that I need to feel that I have a handle on everything.

Like I said I am learning. I am realizing that my children can not grow into mighty men and women of God if I don't allow them to live there own lives. Grace can do the laundry. No one cares if she folds the towels differently than I do. Elijah can put up the groceries. After all the milk will only fit on the top shelf anyway. Isaac can unload the dishwasher because it doesnt matter if the forks are not evenly placed in the drawer. I have to stop micro managing them and start letting them make their own choices. Lord help me. Friends pray for me. I know this is not going to be easy. Letting go never is. However I am excited to see just how far my children can go if I let them.